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Margaret Ann Silver's avatar

"Though if I'd stopped to think, I would have known

You were never one to share - a burden or a prize"

The above lines feels very kind towards the "you"--not mean, not snarky, not dismissive--just an observation of the truth. It's sad but also feels like the speaker is okay. I love how visual this poem is, with the yoke and the oxen.

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Tara Connor's avatar

"The above lines feels very kind towards the "you"" - That's interesting. I think I'm glad it comes across that way. Do you find yourself writing about the same things over and over again, like a kind of purge, in hopes of getting them out of your system? Exorcising demons? Just f***ing letting go of them, already?? Me? No, I never do that. 😜

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Margaret Ann Silver's avatar

😁 I seem to only have a handful of things to write about for sure.

Here’s the thing: I feel the sting of the speaker and how they must feel to have been left behind by this person, but I also don’t see the speaker as wallowing in vindictive thoughts. So maybe “very kind” is a stretch, but sometimes it feels like neutrality can be a kinder choice. But my sleep is garbage lately, so I’m not sure I’m making sense 🤪

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Margaret Ann Silver's avatar

My heart is warm with the friends I make

.

I have a hard time with friends sometimes.

I’m not a hugger. I’m not good at good words

spoken out loud; I prefer the written kind

but even then, I stumble. I rely

on emoticons to let people know

that I hope I am harmless to them.

.

Still, I’m glad for my friends. For the friend

who kept me afloat during my darkest depression.

I should tell her that it feels like she saved my life.

My friend who sent a “Thankful Thursday” list

back and forth with me every week for years,

digging for the good. For the friend

whose deadpan humor and deep faith

makes me feel safe. For the dog

who says nothing, but loves me each day

without asking for anything back.

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Tara Connor's avatar

I really like what you've done here... That sense of not being good enough at friendship, either in person, or in words. But there you go again, saying it perfectly and with such nuance and eye for detail.

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Margaret Ann Silver's avatar

Oh—thank you, Tara. I felt a little flat doing this one, partly because it’s been a rough week. But I found myself thinking about friendship a lot after writing it.

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